Day six

It's day six and I broke my fast. I was trying to get to day 10 but a complete fast is alot harder now than before. I think because I usually get motivaion from drama and life is peaceful right now. But, I'm still fasting partially. I thought maybe God would be disappointed....but he already knows what I was going to do, and he knows my heart. In fact....it was very difficult to pray and read because my mind was so distracted about so many things. I didn't have that emotional charge to keep me focused. But the point is that I did it anyway. And oddly enough, today is the day God is speaking to me. In fact my spirit is overwhelmed with the fact that God is trying to get my attention. He is telling me things that I almost feel I can't handle. Like, I'm thinking "God I'm not ready for this". But, at the same time He also gives me peace. I feel like my spirit has been awakened and on the alert. I need to pray about things for now. I'm not ready to share, sometimes you have to wait. Now I feel emotionally charged...its funny how God works completely opposite of how we think things should because we are living in the flesh. When we feed the spirit things in the spiritual realm become clear. There are no words to describe how amazing it is.